i guess ppl dun really understand wad type of person i really m?
and i guess i owas tends to give ppl wrong impression.. hmm...
let me share abt a story tt happen in the past..
last tym when i am still with my ex..
actually he likes two gals.. another gal n me.
but in the end for duno wad reason he chosen me. =)
but but but.. many things happen in between which i dun wan to say..
he still owas contact that gal. we name her Mary.
things goes on.. till one day i asked him..
whether he needs me or her.. if he needs her thn i dun mind he find her..
but he ans he needs me n he needs her equally. =.=
somehow i am angry..
is either u choose me..
or i rather u choose her..
i dun like a guy who choose two gals tgt..
he say he needs Mary in his life.. n Mary is who he owas like..
he jio-ed her but she rejected him..
i guess if its a girl of cuz u will mind too ya?
anyway, we din solve this prob at all.
but in his mind he noe i mind abt tt he needs Mary as well.
and guess wad?
he told Mary that i hate her alot alot. but i didnt noe he told Mary that i hate her at all.
in the end when i saw MAry in sch, she avoided me? it feels weird larhs.
i din noe wad happen intially until one of my fren told me..
that my ex told Mary i hate her alot.
DOTX! YA! i mind abt my ex needing two gals in his life..
BUT I DUN HATE MARY AT ALL!
why shld i ever hate her if it was my ex who needs her..
it was my ex who clings on to her and NOT she cling on to my ex?
i din blame her.. din hate her.. din dislike her.. nth at all!
it was my ex fault n i m angry at him.. NOT HER!
and his words cause me to lose a nice friend. dotx.
i wont ignore a gal or dislike a gal or dun be fren with a gal jus becuz my ex likes her before or now or in future.
everything is fated.. i would only blame my ex.. not the girl he likes.
guess i m big enuf to think abt all these things in mind?
i guess if i would to dislike or ignore those gals tt my ex like..
i guess i have alr plenty n plenty of enemies in life alr..
there is tis gal who express her feeling to my ex when we r still tgt..
i din dislyk her as well.. the prob dun lies with that gal. but the guy..
so ya.. i m nt a person tt would hate someone if my bf likes b4..
there isnt a hate word in my dictionary.. n i wont hate anyone in my life either.
that Mary is a nice n pretty gal.. n the gal who express her feeling is a nice gal too..
i just dislyk guy being indecisive of who he wants. i hate two - timers too.
I wanted to explained to Mary initially. but i didnt in the end.. i din hav the chance to.. just let it be thn.
but thinking back.. i feel like sharing it nw. thou i noe she wun see my blog too. =)
and oh ya!
i wanted to apologise..
cuz i wont reply most of the msg when i gt bf?
when i m with my ex n also same for now..
sorry!
i guess it was wirst when i m with my ex?
i tin i totally dun reply ppl..
sorry. cuz msg with bf has owas exceed my mum very angry abt it..
n current one i guess i did reply?
i only reply those that i think is a need to reply..
so i guess all my friends alr used to my 'pattern'?
n n n.. sometimes...
it's really my phone gt prob..
i didnt recieves some of the msges tt ppl send me ..
n even if i reply.. the other person might nt recieve it too?
i duno is phone prob or line prob..
so i wun noe whether ppl msg me or nt or whether they recieve my reply or nt?
sorry to all..
how i noe that prob above?
cuz it owas happen oftenly between me n my baby now.. =x
AND sometimes i really forget to reply till the nite of even few days lata when i m clearing my inbox! esp when it comes to decision making...
i tends to think n say reply lata but i ll forget. Sorry!
it's a lengthy post ya?
wanted to clear some misunderstanding in life..
i been wanting to share n thx ppl who reali help me in my life..
but i din hav the time n duno where to start too..
there is so much more thn wad i type above..
many ppl who is kind to me n i m really grateful..
deep in my heart..
i dun say nor show it out nor do i express it out..
but deep in heart i thx every friends n ppl tt step into my life..
they help me in one way or another.. ^^
