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i watch a scv show..
about depression..
lols.
and it says..
when at certain time of life..
u felt u were so useless to e earth.
u felt u r just the extra one on earth..
u felt u wanted to end ur life so much..
cuz the world n everyone dun nd u at all.
u felt it would be beta to leave the world.
u felt everyone would be happier without u..
then u r sufferring from depression..
lol. then i realise yuan lai last time..
i guess i got depression..
cuz i got all the above stated. lols!
then aso, i realised it is quite common?
i mean quite a lot of ppl have tt tots..
however, i guessed it was only when
or 4 or poly thn i got abit better?
i din noe what changes me too..
but i m glad.. i noe hw to cherish my life more..
not for others.. but for my dearest mummy!
lols.
in the past many things happened..
that i felt the world was OWAS so unfair to me..
others r enjoying.. but not me.
just bcuz i am quiet? or i look stupid?
unpleasant things owas happened on me..
but i m happy i went thru all those too..
at least i m more immune to it when it happen again.
lols. n i realised.. if it is nt meant for me to noe..
it would forever be kept as secret from me..
if i m meant to noe..
the news would be release to me eventually..
there is no point forcing.. it doesnt works..
just like what a person told me..
for instance..
there is a cup of water on the table..
it is filled with water till half..
some people would say..
1. "oh! there is still half cup of water left!"
but some people would say..
2. "oh no! half cup of water alr gone!"
from these.. u can see a person personalities.
thou both describe the same things..
it illuminate the differences in mindset..
interesting to me..
from my perspective:
the first one.. those people noe how to be contented
with what they have.
the 2nd one.. those people r jus greedy for more..
they r not easily contented.
n i realise in life.. it is really impt..
to be contented with everything u have..
instead of getting upset n dwelling/hoping/demanding
for things u dun have.
sorry if it bored u all..
i duno y i love to tok this kind of things..
i love psychology..
if only my language is beta.. =)
